Lincoln City here we come...

As most of you know Gabriel's 1st birthday is this Saturday. Such a bitter/sweet day :/
Summer, My dad, My Paternal Grandparents and I are going to spend the weekend at the coast. We leave in the morning. We're gonna take Summer to the aquarium and let her fly her kite. Much time will be spent on the beach, I love to collect shells and unique rocks. I want to visit some tide pools and take a LONG walk by myself by the water. I'm bringing my camera and I plan to take a billion pictures, I'll be doing names in the sand for my BLMs & we're going to do a balloon release on the beach for his birthday and I will also like to do a candle lighting on his 1 year angelversary (the 8th).

I hope that I don't spend the whole weekend in tears & a total mess. I'm going to try my best to enjoy this trip, but that may be easier said than done. We shall see..

I'm taking my laptop with me, the house is supposed to have wireless Internet, I hope it really does. If so I'll be checkin in every night. I need to get packing now and I'm super exhausted :( I miss him so much.


Gabriel~
Hey buddy! I can't believe that you're 2 days away from being 1!!! It feels like you were born yesterday, and it feels like it was a million years ago all at once. I love you sooo much little man, and I'd give anything to have you healthy and happy and here with Summer and I! We miss you so much!! There isn't a day that goes by that we don't think about you, in fact Summer and I talk about you, or talk to you every single day. Please be with us this weekend at the coast, we're going to have a little party for you, we'll send some balloons up to Heaven for you. Maybe you could send me a sign that you're near, something that I can't miss baby, I sure could use that right about now. I LOVE YOU GABRIEL! Goodnight buddy. Sweet dreams.

Love,
Mommy